~oputy: These are the Boring things in my Mundane life...

It's all clear to me now

2008-03-30T20:31:00.002+08:00

No doubt my life is made of complete lose and fail. I live in fear and agony everyday, especially when I am at home. When people actually are 'homesick', I am, however, sick of home. Everyday I wake up at home, I get back pains, my eyes hurt and I get dreadful headaches. The aura of death doom and destruction is seeping into my brain and I completely fail to comprehend the greater understandings of the universe. I also am unable to do my homework.

The problem directly comes from a single entity that I recognize as my father. No doubt a greater being above our kind has overseen much mistakes in his accomplishment, to have created a freak of nature of sorts. Let us examine the phenomenal homo nonintelligenus into further detail. To start with, the species are only of a single gender, which is indeterminate (but not asexual). It may externally resemble a homo sapiens, however its aptitude for thought and greater intelligence is clearly limited, hence the fitting name. Some characteristics include a voice that is simply too harsh a frequency for a normal person to be able to actually understand its content, which is terrifically stupid, to use the most apt adjective, however crude, appalling dress sense and an amazingly one-track mind.

From that much summarized description, I think it is sufficient to determine what kind of life I live at home.

fun laughter peace and joy.

Silence

2008-03-10T13:01:00.003+08:00

Fill the void silence
the dullness the agony
hear me and myself

~hay a haiku

Torment me.

2008-02-22T21:10:00.001+08:00

Proof

2008-02-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

True. I have been very selfish in my last post. No doubt something has been poisoning my mind. I shall divert the blame to iced tea, an addiction that I am trying very hard to cure myself of (and it's succeeding!).

Chinese New Year is around the corner (3 days left). It is becoming quite obvious that I am suddenly very obsessed about counting days down (and up, if it really matters). Once again, I shall prove my point that people do not love money for the fact that you like it for the things you can buy but simply for the fact that it is the most easy to hoard and at the same time the absolutely most hilarious thing that exists ever.

However, what I actually look forward to is the five day break that comes along with it. Although it involves the moving from point A to point B to point C and so on till I eventually get back to point A (a tiring process indefinitely), it gives me a period of mental rest and fun laughter peace and joy to a certain large extent. It brings me to the point about school. The fact that I am facing the large mental and physical demand brought to me by my school life, I have realized the fullness of life that I am experiencing as for now, that is the lack of soul impoverishment (hey cool new word), especially in contrast to my lack of physical satisfaction.

I surmise that it is due to the lack of time I spend at home. I rest my case. Liverpool Sunderland 3-0. The greatest team ever for the epic win.

liek wtf?

2008-01-20T20:09:00.000+08:00

I just realized that this is the first post of a not-so-glorious (really) 2008. And it hasn't exactly started well for me. Apparently, life really sucks if you're a straw (sorry, I couldn't help slipping in a bad joke, really). But, well, it really sucks.

If nobody really noticed, I have been very unhappy since the start of the year (not exactly sad, but unhappy with life and how things are going in life for me). I have the exact reasons pointed out why, and I know them myself too well, AND they are good enough to drive a normal person to the deepest depths of hell. However, life has always been fair (or unfair?) to me. An ugly combination of inferior genes, superior intellect (great wisdom), bad parenting and regression towards the mean has been around to create the definitely un-inferior person I am. Fortunately, there are still many elements in my environment that I still benefit from. To be really candid, I must thank the friends that I have, especially some people in my civics tutorial, and definitely everybody in my orientation group, for the fact that I have not gone mad yet and started shouting the four-lettered-F-word left right and centre (maybe up and down, but that isn't the point). For the record, 73 times I said last year, a good eighth of the year before.

To be truthful, I have few resolutions for the year. Firstly, I plan to get my weight back to 80 (for I lose half a kilo a week, since the start of the year). Secondly, I hope to completely swear off the use of swear words (go ahead, punch me in the face for the bad pun). Lastly, I hope to get into H3 Biology, especially an NTU module for fun laughter peace and joy.

Good. That's about all.

Well it started with an alright scene...

2007-12-29T21:26:00.001+08:00

As 2007 crawls down to an agonizing 3 days before it's awful demise, I would like to record all that's happened to me in the past 2 weeks or so, considering I might as well as had raved about it in my last post (pardon my enthusiasm, or lack of it). To be more direct, I went to Taipei. Much to my disappointment, it did not fascinate me as much as before. Thus the title.

What ever. I spent lots of money on fascinating stuff. Firstly, I purchased all the Naruto manga to date... all at half price wherever you buy them compared to my country (suck **** losers), bought funny looking candy (in fascinating forms too), a cat pencil box, sketchbooks with SOVA cheats, and to top it all off, a PETER RABBIT LUNCH BOX (holy ******-****ing shit)!

Okay, come to think of it, it wasn't so bad after all. And to end it off, enjoy the last three days of the year, and remember your resolutions.

That's it

2007-12-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

Strangely, I am using the same title that I used in a certain previous post, albeit without a punctuation mark. I decided to end this one without one because I have not an idea why I am exactly writing this. The vaguest reason that I can come up with is that life is messed up.

There are many things I had looked forward to this weekend, but all of them ended with particularly shallow and horrible notes. The inadequacy of the satisfaction after experiencing whatever that I had been expecting resulted in this post. Let me begin. Probably the greatest Liverpool team ever by Rafa Benitez in all his years has just had its unbeaten streak ended by some horrible team, and by an even more horrible horrible scoreline. What is going to happen in the next two crucial matches? The Champs League, we must stay to hang on to our place in the finals, and the other match after? We cannot afford to lose. Really. Rafa, open your eyes and keep your good players playing. You will never walk alone.

Secondly, I had just watched Royston Tan's epic movie "881" today. To be truthful, I expected a better storyline from it compared to many other movies. Instead of living up to expectations, it turned out to be a pain to watch. Thus, I am really glad I am not gay and did not spend money to watch it at the theatres.

I hurt my neck from bad sleeping posture. My wrists are screwed from weightlifting and sticking. Jiraiya is going to die. I desperately need a cat. Or a cow. Or a llama. Whichever is more available.

This title is to show the irrelevancy of it all

2007-11-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

I just realised some horribly crucially damaging to my holiday plans. My affinity to my intrawebs gets noticeably stronger everyday, and it is indeed scaring me when I am unable to fulfill my holiday plans. Argh. There are few things that I look forward to during these two months. Firstly, it would be the trip to Taiwan, closely followed by the audition for college art. The reason I am actually writing this is because another thing I had looked forward to do during the holiday has been brutally taken away from me. More implicitly, regardless of the spiel that I am taking time to type, I have finished reading all the comics at home. This is very bad. Thus, I am making a list of the books that I badly want: Neil Gaiman's Stardust (whoa, the movie was awesome), the Sandman (all of it for keeps, dammit), "For one more day" by Mitch Albom (funny how I suddenly forgot his name), "Astonishing splashes of colour" by Clare Morral, Dragonball by Akira Toriyama (to keep, I have the last few books), IFS's collection and a Wii and a DS, because they are amazingly multifunctional. (16th November: Aww... damn, I forgot Kingdom Come.)

Another reason why I am writing this is to reset my holiday purposes. As I mentioned, my plans have been slaughtered mercilessly because of my affinity to the intrawebs. So the initial plan of making an epic painting is infinitely out of the question (sadly). However, I shall not despair at not being able to paint, because it just occurred to me as a possibility, at that particular moment. I really should ask for help.

Lastly, for all the angst that I have voiced out (orly?), I shall raise some insights of how screwed up our lives are. Firstly, dumping your coffin to scare the living shit out of people is a hilarious thing to do if you are really stupid. Secondly, Liverpool is the best team in the world.

That's it?

2007-11-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

One of my last precious moments as a secondary school student ended on Monday night. And what a night it was. As the father of a very good friend of these four memorable years said, "non-alcoholic fun". It was a night to remember. During such times of fun laughter peace and joy, it never ever strikes anyone that we have indeed lost some of our original number (and gained some as well, even if that is irrelevant). Death or loss and celebration are almost completely unrelated and just like Monday night, we never gave a thought to people we have departed from us. However, these four years have been exceptionally eventful and has obviously improved myself as a person, whether others like this improvement or not (personal opinions are irrelevant, and if you think I'm that conceited, stop reading this and leave me alone).

To celebrate my departure from a certain prestigious school in the Bishan-Toa Payoh district, I recently went for a part time attachment at a factory plant. For one day only(Tuesday). After all that crap I had to put up with, I learnt a few very important lessons:

Firstly, working at any point of time is a horrible thing, and the fact that you are doing so is even worse is because it is almost impossible to enjoy your job unless it is not one. So what ever way you think, it is that bad. Secondly, if you especially treasure each and every of your brain cells, it is unadvisable to apply for a job like I did. In further detail, the job I did was to clean up identical plastic pieces for use in electronics, thus making the process extremely laborious and monotonous. Lastly, money is never an issue compared to your sanity and your drunkenness, which is experience from two bad times with ethanol.

So at the end of the day, my life as a high school student has ended, and life must go on, even with the existence of ethanol (and drinking ethanol too). And while you are at it, Wikipedia vandalism rocks. (Hey damn, they fixed it.)

Screw that bastards

2007-10-30T20:53:00.000+08:00

I am not very happy today. For one thing I have endured two absolutely ridiculous and irrelevant speeches in my whole life (ya rly). The first one involved the failure of the coming Thursday, which will be a waste of time compared to the epic fun and self-improvement I could do in the whole 6 hours in school. The other one was a speech made by a gay (yes really, my friend found his name on this site, don't click on it), and it involved insulting me and many other intelligent people around me irrelevantly (I deserve to be shot, considering I had bothered to listen to the bloody guy talking).

So as I was saying, the gay insulted many people about not turning up for certain events like they promised to. And apparently, so I did. The worst thing was that the guy described and referred the whole entire affair akin to the unpredictability of the school year, because he is a gay and has a stupid gay mind like all other gays (so, if you are gay and are reading this, I sincerely hope you think you are smart so this guy is smart too). If he had balls (unlike some real people), he would say straight to everybody's face that he is pissed because of the poor performance of everybody else this year (asshole).

The issue eventually comes down to how the bloody society has eventually degraded to the lowest possible form of community ever. I am, if nobody has realized, talking about the way people in a certain crimson point of a country has become a civilization of nitpickers. Simply put, if you want a law against something that nobody cares about to be lifted, just commit that crime until someone realizes that it is wrong, then stop. Following that, get into the same argument and end at the same conclusion, with your added enjoyment of breaking crime.

So, today, the takeaway of it all is that the world is stupid. If you think you are smart, take action now.

Fun laughter peace and joy

2007-10-29T19:48:00.000+08:00

It just struck me that the examinations have ended (or in a way, ending soon for many of my friends). At the same time, the holidays are starting in a week or so. It is very interesting how I still feel no bloody satisfaction from this even though it has been a long time ago. Like llamas (wtf random).

Like every other generic student that has a blog to speak of, I shall talk about my pathetically generic life where I am conformist and stupidly boring. (Dear diary,) today, the school administration has decided that the school compound has been relatively clean and has thus decided that it was time to give the obviously (not)working cleaning staff a lot more work to do. In other cruder and shorter words, it was cleaning day. My classroom probably houses one of the most insane classes ever seen in school history and has legendary characters in it (who I will conveniently not mention), so it is expectable that it is extremely clean (not). So, we had a fun time cleaning it up. In the process, I have realized that I most likely have obsessive compulsive disorder, as a friend pointed out, because I am irrelevantly thorough with scrubbing the walls clean. Amazingly, our hard work paid off, and the class became cleaner than any other class in the whole block. We also realized that the school building has a flawed drainage system, which can actually be expected because the contractors who built the building are supposedly the ones who build prisons (so remember kids, when there is a flood in Bishan, please do not seek refuge in a certain prestigious academic institute in the area).

The school has fallen to pieces. So in 3 days time, I am graduating and leaving this wreck of a place to a worse one next door. And the prospect of that is not very pleasing in my opinion. However, I have decided that life is not a stagnant object and I must accept that fact even though I would rather stay in where ever I am now.

I suppose so.

2007-10-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

Apparently, there is nobody reading this, which I am very glad because the whole bloody blog is a stupid idea (again, less stupid than stupid people). So back to the original story: what am I going to do during the holidays? I suppose the original idea sticks, I AM going paint. The initial idea would be that I shall fork out some money on materials (canvas, GOOD acrylic paint, knife and whatnot) then try selling it away or something, to get the money back (I doubt it will sell anyway). So effectively, I am set for the holidays.

If that's that, the next question will be: "Hay guy, what you painting?" I don't know either, so if anyone actually reads this (hopefully intelligent), please comment, I need ideas (photorealism is ideal) (so are cats). So real men do painting and paint stuff. I wish I were some studio artist with a tablet and painter to save all the trouble of mixing and drawing. It is really so much simpler with a virtual medium. So I had better start practicing my penciling and line work again, for the sake of my sanity and skills. I hope I'm still up to standard (I am also planning to put some stuff up on deviantart, especially the prep work and warm-ups for the coursework, so if you ever find it, you can comment too).

Another thing I find peculiar would be the way things happen around the world. Pardon me if I'm insensitive, but recently, I have noticed that many many Muslim people die during their festive season, and the way the media (for example, the top tabloid around) reports these is as good as demonizing them. Look at it this way: the news reports Muslim deaths during this season as "Hari Raya tragedy". Apparently its not as tragedic as how the people sympathize not with the victims for their plight, but plainly because the word tragedy is used. This is NOT a fallacy of hasty generalization. Many things around the world happen, but only when the label "tragedy" is applied, the public takes notice, and even then action may not be taken. Granted that we are mostly an apathetic bunch because of the superficially-minded society today, the hilarious bit is that the way the media talks about this is as good as screaming on their headlines: "Nothing new today, only that we have a big obituary feature". Once again, I emphasize that I apologize for being insensitive and that this is not a hasty generalization.

I watched the documentary "Bowling for Columbine" today. It's by Michael Moore, so you should understand how positively hilarious it is. For one, it is extremely simple to realize that any violent scene sped up to play at a 1.2-1.5x frame rate makes the whole thing look like a big joke (try it for yourself). The whole point of the movie is to say that the director would like to piss the whole American gun-toting community off by putting the "tragedies" in their faces (lol). It seems that our community is not as much different from the Americans, granted that it is generally agreed that we are a lot smarter than them.

Suicidal thoughts are funny, but please don't implicate others in your plans. This is a truly random post. I'm not thinking straight.

What happens now?

2007-10-13T16:35:00.001+08:00

Ok, so now the EOYs have offically ended for me. Last Thursday. One day late after all Bio EOY because I have the NORMAL Chinese Paper. Actually it's not so bad, considering I don't have to take anymore exams this year, giving me infinitely more fun, laughter, peace and joy compared to those people who take HCL.

It strikes me that after the examinations this year, there is no true joy in completing it, unlike the previous years where the extremity of the celebrations is overwhelming. So the question is (if you haven't realized): What happened? The answer is elusive. I don't know, but it seems to me that there is no longer the exhilaration of completing some examinations when either 1: there are many more to come, or 2: there are too many times I've experienced something like that before (which is true, considering that the Raffles Programme is screwed up to a large large extent, to the point of perversion). Been there done that, I suppose.

So after the celebrations, another major issue surfaces: the holidays are coming. So what am I, a person who has devoted a whole 4 years of his life to a useless syllabus, to do during the holidays? Should I do what I have always done with the past few holidays? (2004: Ragnarok Online, 2005: Maplestory, 2006: DoTA) Or, on the other hand do something actually worthwhile since no worrying is involved this time about the new life that I am (really) unconcerned with next year? (Yes, it's going to be the same old, same old.)

What is actually worthwhile today? As I write here, my brother is on the other PC next to mine, playing DoTA. Apparently, there is a sense of accomplishment involved when he wins a game, and the opponent(s) lose(s). But the crux of it all is, is it really worthwhile? Just like reaching level 99 on Ragnarok, or level 200 on Maplestory (and inadvertently losing ~~some~~ many brain cells in the process), the question is what have you (or I, for that matter) really done with that amount of time you had on your hands?

So now, I contemplate upon what I have now, and what I am going to do for the next two months.
1: I have approximately 100 bucks to spare.
2: I have a pair of drumsticks and the relevant skill.
3: I have paintbrushes and pencils and MORE relevant skill.

It seems to me that I can do a painting in the next two months. At least a 0.8 by 1.0 canvas. Or, I can go to my friend's house to practice on drums as often as I can (I hope, LOL). Or stay on the computer for the rest of the year (which I obviously deem as a stupid and irrelevantly generic answer for the similarly generic dickhead behind another generic computer screen, hohoho).

How I ramble. So I end with many important questions unanswered and waiting to be (by the time the holidays actually start, I hope). Contemplations, decisions and what not.

Why I hate studying

2007-09-25T21:54:00.000+08:00

Examinations are drawing nearer everyday, which is horrible. Today, there are exactly 9 more days to my first EOY exam day, for English and SS. As for now, I dread studying, because 1: I am in a holiday mood and 2: I do not appreciate stupid people around me when I study (yes, I really mean it, for stupid people bothered to read this up to here).

I blame this holiday mood on the school. My well-planned differentiated module weeks had gone up in smoke when the examinations were suddenly just one week after it. So at the last week of DMP, I write this particularly because "I hate you upper administrator of evil fate". The modules I took were supposed to not let my brain implode because of such extreme stuff, so effectively, my holiday after the 1st week of September was extended by another 3 weeks. I mean it, really. How bad can a drum course and lessons on logic and paradoxes screw you up, considering I already know how to play to an extent and I have to take Philo in school? Dammit. To add to the sheer insanity of it, I have yet to do a Chinese assignment due half a year ago and present my English portfolio which my teacher keeps postponing the appointment date.

Next, I HATE STUPID PEOPLE AROUND ME (If you feel offended already, please be slightly smarter AND STOP READING THIS). The top stupid person around me should be my father. As I sit here and touch up my English script and writing this, he is drinking beer, watching TV and munching on something I do not want to know. For the past 1 hour after he has come home and I have started doing my work, he has been doing nothing and making irrelevant comments and asking similar questions which require answers that are so simple it degrades the human mind just to read them. Thankfully, there is my mother, who is much more intelligent and she thankfully keeps the environment suitable for me to live in (If it weren't for her, I would have run away from home). Another stupid person is my brother sometimes. But he is an acceptable character at times, which, again, makes me thankful for all the good things I have around me. Lastly, I would like to say a BIG sarcastic "THANK YOU" to all the emos around me for eating into my brain and gnawing on the soul in it. What my brain needs are more mindless brain eating zombies around, thanks a lot. Emos, go slit your wrists and feed the poor people in Africa and leave us alone after contracting AIDS at fifteen years old, thanks.

After all the happiness in this (and the PAIN), I would like to say that the education in Singapore is screwed up particularly a certain top secondary institution in the Bishan-Toa Payoh area, and that Myanmar monks should go back to praying for world peace instead of contributing to the chaos.

Musing...

2005-06-13T19:53:00.000+08:00

Hi.

I am feeling 'muse'y today.

...
As the swordsman hones his sword,
whets it upon the 'oiled thingy u hone ur sword on',
The writer grinds his pen.
He whets his pen on the 'thingy made up of wood pulp',

Yet the sword can be used at all times.
The pen cannot be.
Nothing's worse.
Than the pen.
The pen who lost his muse.
...

...
OpUtY

I am back. Yea.

2005-06-13T19:49:00.000+08:00

LOL.
I am long back after camp. And it has been exactly 1 week after camp, (actually, 10 days), but i don't care! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

I don't blog often. I feel useless.
I can't play computer games during the hols.
What's the point?
Hmmm.
I think I'd rather be back in school.
LoL. I wanna play Maple.
Wait... MapleGlobal is no longer on beta.
I'm bored.
Can this be considered as Free Verse?

Nope.
Sorry.

Free verse? (not.)
OpUtY.

Hols are here again! again! and again!

2005-05-10T17:59:00.000+08:00

Hi guys,

back to the keyboard again:
the midyear exams are over and hols are coming soon!
wheeeeeeeee~

oh yeah, there are camps and homework too,
life in RI isn't as fun as it seems...
boohoooooooo~

OpUtY

HiHi! Hols are here!

2005-03-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

You know, holidays are never fun.
Camps, Jobweek, Assignments, you can never get them done.
When you get back to school;
teacher asks :"How was your holiday?"
Maybe she was expecting "Yay! Hooray!~"
But the response is less resounding,
neither does it sound exciting,
Actually, it is less enthusiastic,
And spending time reading this poem is rather spastic

A spasticated poem,
OpUtY

I wonder if this works...

2005-02-06T11:02:00.000+08:00

Maple Story: A whole new world...

2005-01-18T20:09:00.000+08:00

Hi! OpUtY here!~

Maple Story rox! I just started playing it and in a minute fraction of the day, I leveled myself to 8!!!!!!!~ Yay!~ Isn't it fun!~ Well, I should say its like Ragnarok Online, only that it's ironed down to 2D graphics... Well, I could live with that, and I love killing them snails!

I think I'm going to be a Combo Bowman ( STR & DEX combo) so it's quite easy build my character...

But my parents only allow me to play for a pathetic half-an-hour every week, boohoo... I'm never going to level up fast... (i_i)

'Till next time,
OpUtY!~

From the new P.E. Rep... OMFG!

2005-01-18T20:02:00.000+08:00

Hi! OpUtY here,

This is so *DUMB*... Second week of school and I'm drowning under projects and homework... *glub**glub**glub*... I just finished almost all of my work... so its OK~

'Till next time!
OpUtY!

Bert's a Prefect!

2004-10-27T15:21:00.000+08:00

Hi! OpuTy here!

Thanks to me and many others of the campaign team, Bertrand Na has been elected a new prefect of the RIPB. But I wonder if it is a blessing or a bad thing, Bert is quite bossy now...

I did a spastic poster for his election and tada~ he is a prefect... shows how a slacker can help someone else get further in life...

'Till next time, 'c'ya!
OpUtY...

>sadisticlaughter<

2004-09-12T21:25:00.000+08:00

'k, stop pushin' me.

I noe I'm kinda late to make a blog.

This is just a slipshod piece o' work, it's not funny.

I noe I will not have enough time to log on this blog.

But this is the best I can do...

A spasticated Pome,
By,
OpUtY.